Some days just seem to be more stressful than others. Today was one of those days. I can’t say for sure why it was more stressful than other days just that it was. My morning groups ran great. My first grade math students are progressing well. They have been introduced to new concepts in the last few days and are catching on quickly. My first grade reading group is also doing great. The students are making very few errors when reading the stories from the lessons and they are getting better and better at their sight words. I am not having any real behavior problems. One student, who is impacted by Autism, is having problems with his eyes. He is continually complaining because he feels like there is something in his eyes. I think maybe he has allergies and the itching makes it feel like there is something in his eyes, but it is really hard for him to function with this going on. So far all I can come up is to give him a wet towel. That helps with the itching, but it gets in the way of him completing his work. My most challenging student, behavior wise, has been working really well since I started playing the student teacher game with him and he wasn’t even there today. The weird thing is that I was not the only teacher who felt this way. When all the students were out of the room, one of the other teachers said, “Wow that was a hard day.”

Ok. It was a hard day. That happens, but as the grown up it is my job to stay even. The students need to depend on me to treat them with kindness and respect no matter how I am feeling. I can’t be short with them. They need to feel safe with me always. Some things I can do to help keep my stress from showing; Have a plan but stay flexible. Today when I got to my afternoon reading group and they were not doing what they were supposed to I needed to relax and move us toward the plan. If we didn’t get all the way through what I had planned, no harm would have been done. It is a short amount of time and although my mentor teacher wants us to keep it academic sometimes that just isn’t possible. I do however need to find a fun way to work on rhyming with this group. I want it to be fun and it needs to be quick because we only have fifteen minutes

Halfway through my student teaching and completely finished with my work sample. I will spend the next six weeks enjoying my time in the elementary students without the pressure of going home every night and spending two hours working on my work sample. I feel great about the way my groups are going. The students have become accustom to me and my expectations and they all seem to bee making progress. Each of the students that I am working with have had an impact on me. I love the diversity of their personalities and needs. It is rewarding when you find something that a child can enjoy while learning. One of my math students, who is impacted by autism, will work very hard if at the end of group he is given time to make math problems out of building blocks. Not only does he make the build the math problem with the blocks, he also write the number sentence to go with it. He thinks this is a reward and I think he is gaining more math skills. In the same group I have another young man who is easily distracted, but has made such great gains this year that he can do most of the math independently. This student often finishes his work ahead of the other two students. One of my concerns for this student is that he write many numbers and letters backwards. So when he finishes his work I give him the Stamp and See from Handwriting Without Tears and he practices writing his numbers. He thinks it's fun and I think it will help him with his letter reversals. The last young man in this group is highly impacted with ADHD. His attention span is about ten seconds, but he is the kindest, sweetest little boy. The best thing about this guy is that he wants to do well. He often says thing like; "But I want to follow directions," or "It's hard to pay attention," or "This is hard." The truth is he really is doing his best and he doesn't understand what we expect from him. So, to help him understand exactly which of his behaviors need to change I have started using the teacher student game. Each time he talks out, stares off or does not follow my directions I take a point. Each time he exhibits proper student behavior (asking when asked, staying seated, writing the answers in his book) he gets a point. If he looses (which should not happen more than once in a two week period) he owes me a minute at recces. For every point he earns he gets that number of color spots on he prize incentive sheet. I don't really like taking recces time away, but that is school policy so I feel that I have to use it. This student really struggles with subtraction. He can count backwards from twenty, but when you ask him to cannot back one time from five he cannot do it. I take a little extra time everyday with him and really work with subtraction. This group often feels like three separate groups and it is very challenging to keep them all occupied at the same time, but that is what I live about this job. That and their sweet little smiles.

Today's lesson went really badly. I tried to present a lesson that was fun and interactive for the students, but that is not what happened. First, only one student was there and that makes it hard to have an interactive lesson Second the student who was there doesn't like the feel of Play Dough, so he really didn't like making letters with it. That was suppose to be the body of my lesson and take about ten minutes, but because he hated to feel of the Play Dough under his finger nails this part took only about four minutes. I really thought making the letters out of Play Dough would be a fun way for the students to review the two letters we have learned. Next time I try to make letters with the students I will try wax sticks or noodles. Third, The poem Twinkle, Twinkle little star was too overwhelming for the student. I thought seeing the letters in a poem would be a fun assessment. But I was wrong. The student took one look at the poem and was overwhelmed. Looking at it now I can see that the letters are too close together and there are too many of them. One line from the poem with the letters spread apart may have work. Something I may try in the future is to have the whole poem to read, but just a word or two from it for the students to work with.

Today I finished my fifth lesson in my work sample. That is half way to being finished with what I think is the hardest piece of the graduate program. Working with two kindergarten students is fun and challenging. They seem to understand something one minute and not have any idea what you are talking about the next. The nice part about this work sample for me is that with kindergarten students it is still acceptable to play games and have fun. I believe this should be true for all ages. School is hard for students with learning disabilities and in order to keep their interest and keep them coming. I had a really great conversation with two second graders today. They are both behind their peers in reading and today they said they couldn't wait to read like the other students. I want these guys to except themselves for who they are and still work to improve their abilities. but it does them no good to see themselves as less than their peers. I then I shared that I couldn't read in the second grade either and that I was in a class much like the one they are in. I explained that to become a great reader you really have to find books you enjoy and then spend time reading. I also explained that learning to work hard now will give them an advantage when they were older. I had seeing second graders already becoming defeated. They have so many years left in school. The one student said that at her old school other students made fun of her because she couldn't read. In a society were we are suppose to honor diversity have a learning disability is still a stigma.